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ok so I'm grounded for 2 days for not doing the dishes by the time I had to go to work today because my mom claims she told me to do them by that time and if I didn't she'd not take me to work and she'd ground me. I'm using on of the library computers now but I can't go on when I get home...

she's being such a piss-head, she didn't f*cking say I'd be grounded, she says I called her a liar, yea f*cking right I did...

today's not a fun day ):

went to valley fair today with the family and kyle's friend mark...who's such an obnoxious little turd l-:<
the rides and stuff were pretty fun I ate a ton of junk food and went on the wild thing with mom...it was cloudy and raining all day so for once I didn't get sunburned ( :

8 days till schoool starts :D

period 1-english-Brown
period 2-biology-huemoeller
period 3-french 3-sauermann
period 4-world hist-lewis
C lunch
period 5-geometry-delmont
period 6-health-riggs
period 7-study hall-huemoeller

k so...if you have any classes with me or lunch holla; kristen, annis, amy, kassie, and peggy have my lunch but other than that I dunno anyone with a same class as me or anything.

ok so I'm not fat :P but uh
I NEEDA LOSE MA SPARE TIRE
jk jk...or am I O.o

only 2 more days of being grounded yipee...my mom offered me money for thrift store shopping yesterday AND I TURNED HER DOWN I dunno what I was thinking I guess cos she just lost her job I was like...uhh...no mom I don't needa be spending more money...but it was a chance to get out of the house maybe I'll take my 3 dollars and go buy something today?

but omg I want a mini IPOD so bad...a little pink one...it stores up to 1000 songs I think that might be just right for me?

Roosevelt went away to canoe camp for a couple of days I miss him a lot and I hope we get to hang out thursday that would be fun...

I'm fat.

my mom got laid off this morning.

16 more days till school and I can't wait. it's depressing being with my family this much.

v.v people can be so mean

I'm grounded for a week ) :

kindof a long story
oh well I kinda deserved it

my God, sometimes I just feel so blind and helpless, I can't help my friends, when I can't help myself, and I can't even see when they need it.

I'm in a f*cking depressed mood right now I don't know how to get out I tried self injuring cutting a little bit with this razor I found but I could not bring myself to do because I'm f*cking weak I thought about crying but my mom said 'oh are you gonna cry now?' and I'm not gonna give in I will not give her the satisfaction of doing that. I tried writing in my journal about sh*tty stuff but what good did that do hardly anything so I guess I'm stuck complaining to this thing now. I want to go sleep in my mom's room maybe but I feel odd when I do that because it's hers and I don't want to sleep in my room because it's hard to during the day so i guess I'll just sit here for a few more hours.

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make the Goonies 2 happen by signing that online petititon, or your eyes will burn out if you ever look away from the computer.

I miss my Rosey...we had a pretty fun time he came over around 5 we watched some mtv then saw avp at 7:30....it sucked, I wouldn't go see it, but it was great being with him...his scent still lingers on ma clothes :-)

score!!!!! I officially have all my service and growth hours done!!! I needed 50 complete hours of each to get confirmed and I've been working since the summer before 7th grade on it and now I finally have 50 service and 61 growth! ^_^

ok so me and rosey are gonna see avp tonight at 7:30

hmm....

HOLY COW THIS IS SO AWESOME. TAMAGOTCHI IS BACK WITH NEW TAMAGOTCHIS THAT CAN LIKE TALK TO DIFFERENT ONES AND MAKE FRIENDS AND STUFF.

VIVA LE TAMAGOTCHI!!!!

rosey was supposed to come over around 8 but he never showed up ._.

>.<

[.::Cross Out the Eyes::.]
(Thursday)
Let's call this the quiet city:
Where screams are felt as a wave of stoplights
Drive through the streets as gunshots punctuate the night
The sides we take divide us from our faith
And the morning dove gets caught in the telephone wire

Asleep you set the fire in your own house
And the night was a knife that cut
And I'm paralyzed

Cross out the eyes
Blur all the lines
Tearing this canvas from the wall
We crossed out the eyes
Put lines through these cries
We pulled all the leaves from the trees that fall

A silent dance that we did into this hospital bed
Hear voices from another room
"It happens all the time"
But July in the sand
Then the leaves that fall
And counting down our days to live....
Drain the blood from this valentine.

"We can rise on the wings of the dove
See blue skies getting caught in the trail of all this smoke
We can rise like candles in the dark-yours always"
and an envelope marked with your new address

It was the first time face to face
I'm crossing the line
Talking to the other side of death
Hearing the words that choke memories into flatlines
I'm calling your name hoping for something to wash these dreams of you away
(can't we die!)

(memories in flatlines!)

Cross out the eyes with a set of these lines
Cross out the eyes with a set of these lines!

Fence was blown down in a winterstorm in this field
(cross out the eyes!)
Shut it down on this world into the sound
(I'll trace her!)
What can we do put a stop to the coming white days
(I loved her!)
I'm hoping for something to wash these dreams of you away

(Shut the door on this world, Shut the door on this world)
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# posted by Alyssa : 12:30 PM  0 comments

omfg me+Roosevelt=<3

[.::My Happy Ending::.]
(Avril Lavigne)
Ohh, ohh
So much for my happy ending
Ohh, ohh
So much for my happy ending
ohh, ohh,ohhhh

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?

Don't leave me hangin'
In a city so dead.
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything
That I wanted,
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All of the memories so close to me
Just fade away

All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
ohh, ohh,
So much for my happy ending
Ohh ohh

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All of the memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you care
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

He was everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All of the memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

You were everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All of the memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

ohh ohh ohh ohh
So much for my happy ending
ohh ohh ohh ohh
So much for my happy ending
ohh, ohh, ohh, ohhhhh
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I love that song...all you avril haters shush, I don't care, I think she's a good singer who's beautiful and has talent...and I love her hair and her vampire teeth...she looks a lot like my cousine rachel 0.o

._. summer's slowly slipping by and I haven't hung out with as much people as much as I want to. hopefully Roosevelt will come around today after church he came by yesterday but I was at work....I hate work hate hate hate it but mom won't let me quit she says I have to stick with it I don't even care about the money I just wanna not work there again...ugh

mom might take me to target today for school shopping but I wouldn't hold my breath

happiness is being a grandparent.
happiness is embodied in the 51' red chevy down the street for sale for $3500.
happiness needs 3 new windows and is 53 years old.

I want that car O:

omfg
I haven't been able to sleep all night

( :

Alyssa is floating on a cloud.
she likes a boy named Roosevelt.
and she thinks and hopes that he likes her, too.

^_^

sh*t i ve been feeling pretty depressed lately i dunno why i cant firgure it out but it really sucks. maybe i should ask my mom if i can have my prozac upped to 30g (im at 20) maybe that would help that stuff works great just makes you mellow or happy ir feels like. sh*t i hope this year wont be like 8th grade or the beginning of 9th grade before my lovely prozac i was depressed as hell and wanted to die a lot and stuff.
some helper delivery boy at my dads work who was 19 hung himself in the backyard.

I wish I was someone else.

1. If you were a member of the opposite sex, what would your name be? Adam
2. Do you have any crazy unknown talents that you probably shouldn’t admit to? yup I can lick my nipples ^_^
3. Are you intelligent whatsoever? *coughs*
4. Have you ever tasted human flesh? Yep
5. Ever broken a bone? Nope
6. Can you draw or paint or anything? Yeah I draw a mean p*nis I'm told
7. When’s the last time you took a pill? I remembered to take my medicine last night
8. How many times a day do you pee? I don't. my bladder explodes every tuesday.
9. Have you ever given anyone carrots as a gift? nope O.O
10. When you picture nothingness, do you picture white or black? white
11. Who is the last guy you’ve kissed? Marc
12. Who is the last girl you’ve kissed? Laura ^_^
13. Have you ever skipped to class (not skipped class)? all the time to alegebra
14. What is the weirdest thing you’ve ever found in a meal from a fast food place? My hand... 0.o
15. Who’s the last person you called? Laura
16. Who’s the last person who called you? a telemarketerrr
17. Are you decent at giving directions? screw that
18. Have you ever had death threats against you? haha hell yes!
19. What’d you have for dinner the last time you ate dinner? ice cream and spaghetti
20. Who was the last person who licked you? gee I dunno
21. Are you physically strong? *slaps belly and watches it jiggle* hehehehehehe
22. Have you ever flipped over the handlebars on a bike? no
23. What’s the weirdest body part you’ve kissed? foot
24. Describe every piece of clothing you’re wearing, in detail… Including color…? blue jeans...an orange cookie monster t-shirt...black bra...pink thong with rose ^.^
25. Have you ever sprained anything? probably
26. When was the last time you went to the dentist? sometime in may
27. First lyrics that come to mind…? peanut butter jelly, push it in the belly, peanut butter jelly, push it in the belly...
28. Have you ever been physically restrained in a fight? no but from other things yes (boys, sausage)
29. What is the worst thing someone could say to you? YOU'RE A WIGGER
30. What is the worst thing someone has said to you? uh
31. Look up at the ceiling. What do you see? a woman's yeast infection
32. Who was the last person you licked? I lick so many people I can't even recall
33. What’s the last video game you’ve played? Pacman
34. When’s the last time you went swimming? july something
35. How many pairs of shoes do you own? 2
36. Would you rather “bang” a horse or a cow? I'd want to shoot the cow for my dinner.
37. Describe your fingernails to me…? No
38. Would you consider yourself one of the popular crowd? No.
39. When’s the last time you ate out? saturday
40. What do you wanna be when you “grow up”? I will kill people for money
41. Would you rather be incredibly stupid or would you rather be physically disabled? ;_; that's cold man. real cold.
42. Where is the world going? In circles... usually around the sun from time to time...
43. How many girls have you kissed (on the lips)? like maybe 5?
44. How many guys have you kissed (on the lips)? 4???
45. When is the last time that you did something illegal? *coughs*
46. Name a food that you WON’T eat…? human
47. Do you have an unreal obsession with ice? no but your mom over there is looking quite nice
48. Did you share in kindergarten? Yeah
49. What color pants/shorts/skirt did you wear yesterday? I didn't wear pants/shorts/skirt yesterday muhahahaha
50. When’s the last time you cooked? What’d you cook? ice cream
51. Have you ever flipped a go-cart? nope
52. What’s the longest book you’ve read? See Spot Run
53. Have you ever watched porn? no
54. When’s the last time you flicked someone off? Who? saturday...a dude the smushed my leg with his car. it's got a bruise on it ]=
55. Who’s the last person who flicked you off? your mom
56. Have you ever had popcorn thrown at you in a theater, by someone other than your friends or parents? what kind of sh*thead parents throw popcorn and you in a movie theatre
57. Have you ever thrown popcorn at someone other than your friends or parents? no
58. Do you untie your shoes before you take them off? Nope
59. What is the last thing you’ve drawn? a kitty
60. When I say kinky, what does it remind you of? O.o
61. Who is the last friend who’s been at your house? I have no friends
62. Which friend’s house were you last at? Laura's
63. If you woke up tomorrow and oranges were called pinks, what would you do? squeeze the juice in people's eyes and say haha you have pink eye
64. What brand deodorant do you use? some flowery lady stuff
65. When’s the last time you shaved? today
66. What color is your bedroom painted (walls and ceiling)? White
67. Look to your left. What all is there? desk
68. Look to your right. What all is there? Wall
69. Look behind you. What all is there? couches
70. Have you ever had to have rocks removed from your lip? haha no
71. What’s the last book you read? Bastard out of Carolina
72. How long did it take you to read? a week or so
73. Are you in love with Sharpies? Yeah
74. What about duct tape? Yeah
75. Boxers or briefs? Boxers
76. Describe all the jewelry you’re wearing, in detail…? some curly metal earring things
77. Would you consider yourself open-minded? mmm yeah
78. What grade are you in/going into? 10th
79. When was the last time you went to the doctors? Birth
80. Why did you go? I was born
81. Do you think that you’re stupid? Sure why not.
82. What is the weirdest thing you’ve done at a museum? Put on an ant suit and crawled around like an idiot 0.o
83. If you woke up one morning and found yourself trapped inside a washing machine, what would you do? Take a shower and enjoy the ride
84. Who was the last person who said, “I love you” to you? nobody loves me
85. Who was the last person you said, “I love you” to? my cat
86. Do/Did your parents trust you? not since december of 82'
87. Tell me something you learned today…? my cat has a wee wee
88. Did anything today make you happy? yea
89. Did anything today make you sad? no
90. What is your opinion of Marilyn Manson? I want to do him.
91. (For guys) Do you think a girl could ever be sexy in a loose T-shirt and baggy jeans? mmm yes
92. (For girls) Do you think a guy could ever be sexy in sweats? god no
93. What’s the weirdest thing that turns you on or that attracts you? Shiny things.....
94. Would you consider yourself a good debater? no really... but things usually have good outcomes.
95. Are you stubborn? hell yes, and presistant at that.
96. What’s the worst thing you’ve ever told your mom/called your mom? why would I ever call my mommy a bad name ) :
97. Is your hair wet? yup
98. What font/size/font color/window color do you have on AIM (provided you have AIM)?
99. Have you ever dissected an eggplant? nope
100. If it were the 23rd of March and your grandmother hit you with a sock, would you save a baby from a burning building if it screamed "enchilada!!"? No... I'd save the sock.
101. Come to think of it, have you ever eaten an enchilada? Yep last night
102. Have you ever had the urge to open a furniture store and call it "sofa kingdom"? no more like cum n'go...it'd be a convienience furniture store...
103. Do you regularly visit museums? not really
104. What would you do if tomorrow you woke up, and suddenly a period (as in bodily function type deal) was called a comma? you're just jealous
105. If you had a hot rod, where would you drive it? the cirus...I'd run people over :D
106. Have you ever sincerely hugged and kissed a tree and told it that you loved it a lot? yes
107. Do you get PMS? YES SCREW YOU GO AWAY AND DIE...what?
108. Have you ever eaten a whole bag of cheese popcorn? many times
109. How many licks does it take to get to the center of a corn dog? 3
110. Are you a risk taker in any way shape or form? sometimes yea
111. Have you ever fallen asleep in history class? yes
112. Have you ever fallen asleep in class and gotten away with it? yep
113. If someone sent you a package of instant Jell-O and a bottle of Pert Plus shampoo, how would you react? ...I prolly wouldn't care and be like... who the hell sent this?
114. Do you have HBO? yea 7 of them oh what now
115. How many MP3s do you have on your computer hard drive? none
116. What’s the weirdest thing you’ve received in the mail? a birthday card
117. Would you ever adopt a kid who was named Hippopotosaurus? no
118. (For girls) Has anyone ever asked the size of your breasts in real life, in person? no but I'll tell anyone 38/A
119. If someone offered you a round trip pass to Pluto and was serious about it, would you go? no
120. How tall are you, in inches? 61
121. If you were flying in an airplane and you suddenly saw a tangerine pass by your window, what would you do? go omg and crash the plane while trying to chase the tangerine.
122. Has a bird ever pooped on you? ...yes
123. Who is your favorite Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle (Michaelangelo, Leonardo, Raphael, and Donatello)? I hate those f*ckers they need to burn in hell.
124. What is the weirdest thing you’ve done with shaving cream? rubbed it around on a desk
125. Have you ever put glue on your nose just to peel it off? nope
126. Roughly how many burnt CDs do you own? 20-30
127. Do you own any pirated software? nope
128. Have you ever secretly wished you could be a flying pirate who never would drown? yes
129. Other than family, who is the last person who saw you without makeup on? I don't wear make-up
130. When’s the last time you were in a fistfight? Who was it with? I don't fist-fight it's very unladylike
131. How many fistfights have you been in? see above
132. When was the last time you called someone a “bitch motherfucking whore”? Who was it? no one I would never use the kind of language
133. Are you a member at Blockbuster? No
134. What does H.W.C. stand for (the song)? Hot White Cum
135. When’s the last time you went to the zoo? years ago....
136. Are you one of those weird anime people? yeah ^_^
137. Have you ever told a teacher to “screw that BS”? no
138. What were you doing yesterday at 1:47 PM? taco
139. Do you consider going to Wal-Mart/Kmart/Target a major excursion and something worth waking up for? yes
140. Has a school personnel ever accused you of abusing alcohol/drugs? no
141. Do you know any jokes that include potatoes in the punch line? no
142. Have you ever had a raspberry beamed at your head? nope
143. During a busy day, do you ever realize that you're where you're NOT supposed to be? yep
144. What are the weirdest words you can make for the acronym YMCA…? Young mammals' cancer meat
145. Are there Sharpie stains on any of your clothes? yes
146. Have you ever asked a fat person when the baby's due only to find out they're not pregnant? no
148. Have you ever wondered why "Smellovision" never became big? nope
149. When is the last time you got a toe cramp? is it that time of the month already
150. What is the oddest nickname you’ve given someone? nice boobs girl

*peep*
I worked from 4-7 tonight, and I got trained in oversized and magazines with, get this, Jerome ^_^!
he's so incredibly attractive, looks about 16 or 17, so very friendly and nice and talky...mmm and a nice lushcious body to fawn over, with super strong arms where you can just see the veins popping out, he was able to lift a crapload of those heavy oversized books with one arm...oh lordy...

I wanna start preping for ACT's, PSATs, and SATs...

woo. apple sauce.
I love reading other people's blogs. this one is just boring poop.

there's this guy named Roosevelt he's really hot and nice and stuff if things don't go down with Spencer there's dear Roosevelt I can maybe try for. hmm Spencer was supposed to call me yesterday he seems to do that a lot say he'll call and then like, waits till the last moment or doesn't call at all. I know I've only known him for like a week but it's really annoying.
laura's planning to throw a partay while her mom is gone this week and have a bunch of people sleep over. I'd be able to go for a little while but not much because I'd have to watch Kyle the next day when mom and dad are at work and my mom doesn't wanna pick me up from laura's at 6 am ;_;

grrr I should shoot spencer in the foot for not calling =/

the other night when I spent the night at laura's with kristen jon and marc came over and crashed as well, it was pretty cool but I was REALLY hyper, I just couldn't settle down. I had a thing for Marc it was really obvious he was hot and had a nice body and a sense of humor and stuff...but he and kristen seemed to hit if off pretty well so I guess nothing's commin out of that...plus he's 20...eesh...

only yay many days till school starts...I'm excited more than others it seems :P
but it means no more sleeping or going online all day so that'll suck
but I need something to occupy my time so why not school

THE WAX IS GONE

( : I just came back from Laura's, I went over around 1 when my parents came home. We had a hella good time.
we went to the park and slept in the basement annnd I tried piercing my ear but it bleed A LOT so that didn't work out so good.

Laura's mom is going away for a whole week so we're gonna have a huge party and hopefully spencer can come cos I'm pretty interested in him and I reeealy want a boyfriend pathetic I know but true.

meep I hope her party works out...

ok. here's what's gonna be new.
on mouse overs: hold yer mouse clicker thing over a link and it'll say something.
toybox: I'm gonna try and get it to between 50-70 at most -_-
uhm
I'm looking for a new tagboard cos shoutbox sucks

and a counter that works and is free

gar. I'm tired of having to stay home all day. why didn't I take advantage of being able to go out when it was presented to me? (i.e. when both of my parents weren't working...)
I need/want so many more clothes...I wanna be a clothes wh0re toooo...

other than that I think I need a shower?

yes ma'm that sounds good.

the cat was running around
pouncing at cardboard boxes
now he's done and lays and watches

david's blog thing is pretty insightful

$-:

ok so the mall meeting didn't go as planned.
we ran into a bunch of other people though [Brent, Ashley, Kelsey, Shauna, Jaret, Zack, these random guys]

better luck next time /=

omg
<3!!

omg
<3?
^_^!

;_;
there.is.absolutely.no.way.I.can.do.Les.Mis.

;_; to the 100,000,000,000,000,000,000th power.

I so shaved my brother's unibrow.

A is for Amy who fell down the stairs. B is for Basil assaulted by bears. C is for Clara who wasted away. D is for Desmond thrown out of a sleigh. E is for Ernest who choked on a peach. F is for Fanny sucked dry by a leech. G is for George smothered under a rug. H is for Hector done in by a thug. I is for Ida who drowned in a lake. J is for James who took lye by mistake. K is for Kate who was struck with an axe. L is for Leo who swallowed some tacks. M is for Maud who was swept out to sea. N is for Neville who died of ennui. O is for Olive run through with an awl. P is for Prue trampled flat in a brawl. Q is for Quentin who sank on a mire. R is for Rhoda consumed by a fire. S is for Susan who perished of fits. T is for Titus who flew into bits. U is for Una who slipped down a drain. V is for Victor squashed under a train. W is for Winnie embedded in ice. X is for Xerxes devoured by mice. Y is for Yorick whose head was knocked in. Z is for Zillah who drank too much gin.